Your body is here but you are not

My dearest baby sister. You decided to end your life 2 days ago just about this instant. Although I am conscious and breathing, I have not felt anything real since and time is a blur. I am a shell of what I used to be. I miss you so dearly in ways words cannot describe. You may be breathing, but only because of tubes and a ventilator. Your mind is gone and the person you were will never be. I have barely been able to accept your impending passing, though I will have to some way. I take solace out of the fact you did you in life and in death.I just want you to be okay and at peace with your demons and you got what you wanted. Forever miss you and my life will never be the same. Love, your big brother