My brother Wayne was kind and gentle soul. Had an awesome personality and a great sense of humour. My dad passed away eight years ago from a heart attack and Wayne found him. I think this created a downward spiral which just led him on the wrong path of drugs etc. On 27 September he shot himself because his work found out his was buying drugs in the company vehicle. He couldn’t face them so it got all too much. I miss him terribly each day but what breaks my heart is how it has affected my mom. She used to be the most positive human being and my rock and to watch her suffer just kills me. So you go through all the emotions of blame, guilt, loss, pain and tears and then try pick yourself up and try carry on. I miss you so much Wayne, the laughs and the chats. Just hope you are at peace wherever you may be. Love Dale