Not far from 3 years since my big brother’s Suicide. Part of me wants to say he was 16 yrs old and I was 14 yrs old, because that’s where my heart feels we were, but fast forward 25 years… Tonight I’m focused on the Rascal Flatts song WHY, and the lyric “was there anything I could have said or done?” Oh how I was I would have done things differently, was there anything I could have said or done – maybe; guess we’ll never know! My brain tells me it’s not my fault but my heart will always wonder… rest easy big brother.