Ki

Ki, I wake up every morning asking god why. Why you, why me, why did god ruin MY life. I look around and I know people just look at me as the “broken girl” and nobody actually wants to stop to help because they’re too afraid to “trigger” me. Losing you has been the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I look up at the sky everyday just hoping for a sign that you’re with me but so far nothing..am I disappointing you am I not being the young lady you always thought I’d be. My only wish is to make you proud and to show you I can do it without you here guiding me. I’ve took to this site because I know there are  so many people who can help me with my grieving and the struggles I go through everyday. I get looked past because i was only the sister not the mom and not the dad. Nobody thinks us sibling feel what our parents feel, when we feel the same and sometimes even worse. Ki I just hope I’m making you proud and that one day we’ll meet again