I lost my oldest sister to suicide on October 5th 2023. I miss her everyday and struggle with the fact that she is no longer with us. I never expected her to do something like that. She was usually a happy person, someone I always wanted to be like. I wish I would’ve let her know that. She had reached out to my mother but I feel so bad that she didn’t feel comfortable enough to try and reach out to me. I know she had some health issues and her and her husband of 25+ years were separated, but she appeared to have moved on. I wish I would’ve made more time for my sister. I plan on getting counseling to help navigate this as I feel I’m not handling it right. I encourage anyone who feels similar to get some help as this has been the most difficult loss I’ve ever experienced.