The inquest is next month.My question is should I go to the inquest.
I know no one can tell me what I’m feeling or what I should do.
I just have so many questions.
I hope this is ok to ask.
I hope this is ok to ask.
My beautiful brother, 34 took his life sometime between the 23rd December 2024 & 4th Jan 2025. He told me that he was going on a holiday with his friend, I believed him 100%. I tried to contact him nearly everyday and didn’t get a response but I really had no reason to believe he wasn’t on holiday and just thought he wasn’t getting my messages and having an amazing time. He was found on the 4th of Jan 2025 in his home by a friend. We don’t know when he passed and it’s absolutely destroying me.
We spoke daily about his life and I knew he was struggling but really never imagined this. I was there as much as I possibly could have been. We had such deep conversations and I thought he was moving in a positive direction. He had so much to live for and give this world.
I miss him so much, he was incredible, kind, smart, generous, beautiful, thoughtful and honestly I couldn’t be more proud to call him my brother. I love you so much, I wish I did more, I wish you didn’t feel so worthless, I wish you were here. I yearn to communicate with him. I just want to talk to him.
My mum and dad have moved in with my family and I. It’s all just a lot. It’s all a lot. I’m sorry little brother – you should be here. I hope you know how much I cherish your memory. I will carry you with me in my heart for the rest of my life.
I hope and pray you are at peace.
I hope you are at peace now, and I hope you are filled with eternal love.
Forever you sister,
Sophia
When I pray to God, I ask him to deliver the
Message to you if possible.
I always ask him to please tell you how
Sorry I am. I am so sorry. profoundly sorry.
That night you told me you were tired of living. I
Thought that was a normal part of your recovery
We pushed you too hard. In fact, your entire
Life story is how we failed you.
You have a niece now. She’s bright and hilarious
You would have had a hoot with her. I always
Thought you’d have children before me that I
Could spoil. I haven’t had a moment of peace
Since the day you left. I been through about
4 therapists. I can’t forgive myself for letting
You do this. I didn’t know Joshua. I thought
You’d get better. I hope those NDE stories are
True and that you are in eternal bliss right now.
I miss you so bad it physically hurts. Would you
Please forgive me.
Katie, you are so important to me. I have a hole in my heart that will never be filled. I hope you hear me when I talk to you. I hope the things I see are actually signs from you. I hope you truly are always with me like you promised you would be in your letter.
I will never stop loving you, bub.