can’t stop thinking about it
ever since my little sister made the decision of taking her own life (2 years ago), my brain hasn’t been able to turn off the switch labeled “thinking about it.” I have been wishing for the ability to stop hurting and to be able to live normally but have realized that I need to tackle this head on. I felt like writing a letter to my sister but then I felt like reading letters that other people would write to people who have committed suicide. I still feel like my brain is so full of thoughts of suicide that I can’t think about anything else – I don’t know how to stop this
I don’t know you, but my sister took her life a month ago. I’m hoping it gets better, but so far I’m just so overwhelmed with grief, can’t sleep, can’t work, and am just consumed with questions of why? Maybe I’ll never know the answers. I hope you will feel better.