My beautiful brother, 34 took his life sometime between the 23rd December 2024 & 4th Jan 2025. He told me that he was going on a holiday with his friend, I believed him 100%. I tried to contact him nearly everyday and didn’t get a response but I really had no reason to believe he wasn’t on holiday and just thought he wasn’t getting my messages and having an amazing time. He was found on the 4th of Jan 2025 in his home by a friend. We don’t know when he passed and it’s absolutely destroying me.
We spoke daily about his life and I knew he was struggling but really never imagined this. I was there as much as I possibly could have been. We had such deep conversations and I thought he was moving in a positive direction. He had so much to live for and give this world.
I miss him so much, he was incredible, kind, smart, generous, beautiful, thoughtful and honestly I couldn’t be more proud to call him my brother. I love you so much, I wish I did more, I wish you didn’t feel so worthless, I wish you were here. I yearn to communicate with him. I just want to talk to him.
My mum and dad have moved in with my family and I. It’s all just a lot. It’s all a lot. I’m sorry little brother – you should be here. I hope you know how much I cherish your memory. I will carry you with me in my heart for the rest of my life.
I hope and pray you are at peace.