Wow, I don’t know where to start. Its been a while since I’ve been on this site. But here we go.
6 years today. Feels like yesterday. Your picture hangs in my cubical. I see you everyday and miss you so much. So much has gone on. I struggle, I drink, I overeat. But I’m trying. It does get easier but there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t want to call you or text you about something. I read some of the other posts and they call each other soulmates. What a great description of their relationships. I think that is what ours was too. Damn it, I miss you so much. Your two best friends reached out to me today. I hope you know how much they loved you too. Christ now I’m crying at work typing this. I love you and miss you so much!!!
This is my post and Im reading through these as we are approaching Christmas. I think about you coming into town and how excited I used to get to see you for the week and just hang out. D misses you too and brings you up every once in a while. It breaks my heard when he says he misses uncle c. He could have used your advice as he grew up and I know he would have looked up to you. I still just shake my head and wish you would have called. Thats all it would have taken but I know that isnt what you would have wanted as I would have stopped you and you didnt want to be stopped. The holidays just suck. Cant wait til Christmas is over and that isnt fair to D as a kid he still looks forward to it. Love you with all my heard little brother.