11 yrs ago my sister decided that she didn’t want to live anymore. I had no idea she was struggling. every year I hope I can get through her birthday and death day without a breakdown, and every year I breakdown. There are so many things I’m still so mad about from when it happened and so many things that have happened after that I’m mad she can’t be a part of…..STILL 11 yrs later and its the hardest times of the year. What was once a celebratory time of year is now my personal hell cause no one shares the grief that I have over the loss of my sister…. I won’t ever have that relationship again, I know it will be a part of me that will be a hole wanting to be filled for the rest of my lif
August 29 is coming up, that was the day my brother Jimmy shot himself. It’s been 40 years and I still miss him. He’s the part of me I can’t fill, he’s the empty chair at the holiday table, he’s the one I could talk to when I had a bad day. Its been 40 years and I remember every moment of that day. Time let’s you move on with life but our loved ones are always there. I hope you find peace and some comfort dealing with your sister’s memory. I know it’s difficult because they were such a big part of our lives. I’ll keep you and your sister in my prayers… be well.