I can’t even begin to understand how all of this happened. My brother isn’t here and I have absolutely no way to change what has happened. He’s gone.
It has always been my job in my family to help everyone. I just didn’t KNOW!!! And I want to just scream but somehow I need to first protect my nieces and nephews so that somehow I can try to have my brother be at peace.
How could we not have seen it – how could I have been so stupid – how could no one have told me anything until it was too late!!!!
I will forever love you John and somehow I will ensure your children are cared for.