The walk for suicide is called, "OUT OF THE DARKNESS" they have a website...just do a web search on the title. The sight will give you information on the New York walk, and possibly hosting your own walk to raise money for suicide prevention & survivors of suicide. I will be doing a walk in our town on my brothers birthday. He died on Dec. 26, 2007. This pain we feel is so hard...anguish!!! I often wonder if I will ever feel normal again. It hurts so much! The walk will help me take my mind off this...my grief consumes me; especially during the quiet times.God Bless you all! I will pray for healing for all of us!

I meant to ask if anyone here has information on some 'walk' for suicide prevention that I think will be organized in New York soon? I read it somewhere and I can't remember where (mind still scattered these days). Would appreciate any information. I do plan to do research it on the net too but thought I'd ask. Thank you.

So it seems to me after reading people's posts we still live with this pain many years afterward? So, so hard. . . obviously my brother's recent death is still so fresh for my family and I and I keep thinking that soon this pain will subside and I'll normalize a bit - but I guess what I'm reading here is that we learn to live with it. Today, it is really, really hard. I just spoke with my family in South Africa today and we have our 'hard' days. They were there for me today. I wonder how on earth I am going to integrate this into my life and my world so I can continue to move forward in a healthy, loving way???? I miss my brother too much. It's a harsh reality to accept that he will never be here with me again.

It's been almost 6 years, and I still have tears in my eyes. I miss you so much, I love you forever. I hope your pain is gone, mine won't be until I see you again.

It has been almost a month and a half since my baby brother Warren took his own life in South Africa. He was 27 yrs old. He was a beautiful, warm person. I choke on that thought every day. It breaks my heart and it tears at my soul, every day. I have read a lot of the postings here this morning and all of it resonates! The pain, the ache, the void, the hope that our siblings are finally at peace. The anger even, that they've left us behind, the confusion that such amazing people felt that life was too hard for them. . . Some days it feels too surreal to absorb and other days the pain is excruciating - deep down. I try every day to live my life with hope and gratitude because despite this unbelievable tragedy in my family, I still have my wonderful sister and life. Peace to you all. I feel your pain.

For all those coming up on an anniversary of the tragic loss of their sibling, a piece of advice that allowed me not to fear my Brother's anniversary: Every year at this time, celebrate the anniversary of your sibling's entry into and life in heaven. There is no safer place for our siblings to be then where they are right now. This celebration can extend to birthdays,Easters, Christmas' and all other special occasions. God bless us all.

In a couple of days Matt, my little brother will be gone for three years. Its hard this time of year. On his behalf I've decided to start speaking publicly on suicide prevention. No one should have to go through this pain.

Tim, I miss you and luv you. You never know how deep you have hurt us. You have made a huge mistake. Can you hear me in heaven?



I love you, forever.

I lost my little brother to suicide on Dec 18th 2007 from a gunshot wound to the head,Tony was only 45. I can't believe he's gone,he was my best friend in the whole world and I don't know if I can go on without him,the pain in my heart is sooo deep,theres not a day that goes by without tears in my eyes..He was so loving,funny,smart,and seemed to always love life,and those smiling eyes of his were always shining.. I could have helped had I'd known things were as bad as they were.He didn'y leave a note,I think it would have helped a little if he had.I love you my baby brother and you will NEVER leave my heart..I hope to be with you soon,I hope you are finally at peace.

"I read this and maybe it might help some of you that are going through this pain too"



Usually the victim wanted to stay and to live.Yet,at the same time,he/she couldn't live,so,in confusion,gave into suicide.

I lost my brother and best friend Brian on October 24, 2006 after he hanged himself. My heart has been forever shattered. I still miss him every minute of every day and I relate so well to how it's just incomprehensable how the world just goes on without a missing a beat when we are still in so much pain. Brian was bipolar but he was also one of the most honest, compassionate, and loving people I've ever had the priviledge of knowing. My family has been forever broken and unfortunately we were very close before this event. Things will never be the same and it doesn't seem as if the pain will ever subside. I go thru the motions of my everyday life but I really don't live anymore. The only thing that gives me any solice at all is that I know he is happy and whole again in heaven and he watches over me and my family. Until we meet again my beautiful brother - I'll miss you and love you forever. Luv your little sister Tracey

I lost my sister Becky on 6-30-07. I made a error on my first message.

I lost my sister Becky on 6-30-07. I made a error on my first message.

I lost my sister Becky on 6-30-07. I made a error on my first message.

I lost my only sister Becky,age 49, on 6-30-08.

We spent the days together leading up to her overdose. I have come to realize that it was her way of saying goodbye

to me. She has gastric bypass surgery 3 months prior to her death. I knew she was feeling a bit down, but I had no idea that she was so depressed. I miss her so much. I want to thank everyone who posts a message on this website. It helps me in my journey of healing. God Bless & Thank You.

I lost my only sibling, my older brother, Eddie to suicide on Feb. 18th, 2002. This is the 6th anniversary of that loss and my heart weeps today as though it were that day....all over again. I've read your comments and I know your pain. To those who have recent losses...my heart goes out to you so very much. I lived in that excruciating pain for years. It does ease somewhat as your work through the grieving process....but that scar will forever remain tender and soar.

I miss my Eddie so very much and envy those of you who still have siblings left. He was my one and only..........I miss him very much today!

My little brother Tim (26 years old) took his own life on 13 Oct 2007. The incident has hit us badly and every day is so difficult for us. I can't stop thinking of him. He is so witty and pure. I can't believe that this could happen in my family. Now we are all so in pain and feel so insecure.

I lost my brother to suicide on December 26, 2007. It has been so hard & I cry out to God everyday for help; it is so very painful. I just can't believe he is gone....or what life will be like without him. I am the oldest sibling and he was my baby brother (age 31). I can't stop thinking about him when he was a kid. He was such a sweet boy & continued to be a really great adult. I too put one foot in front of the other, because I have no other choice. Our family circle has been broken...never to be whole again until heaven. I keep praying to the Lord for a sign that my brother is with him...that would bring me peace. He will forever be in my heart! I would have done anything for him.

My brother 45 died from suicide on July 27, 2007. He was the best brother I could've ever asked for. He was always there for us.His big goofy smile and contqagious laugh made him so much fun to be around. I would've helped carry your burden John if only you would've asked. I miss you so so much. We think of you many times a day. You have left a tremendous void in our lives that will never be filled. But, we go on trying to do the best we can. Because we know that's how you would want it.



Love your sister Kathy

Peace to everyone and thanks for sharing. I feel fortunate to have found this site; the loss of a sibling to suicide feels so unique and isolating, it's hard to find people who really get what I'm going through, and therefore I'm usually reluctant to talk about it. February 8th marks one years since I lost my only sister to an overdose. My sister was a best friend I thought I'd have my whole life. I love her still with all my heart and hope she's finally found peace. She left a beautiful legacy of kindness, love, and humor. I will never ever stop missing her, and I so wish that things could have been differnt for her, easier. I know that I will be with her again.

Peace to everyone and thanks for sharing. I feel fortunate to have found this site; the loss of a sibling to suicide feels so unique and isolating, it's hard to find people who really get what I'm going through, and therefore I'm usually reluctant to talk about it. February 8th marks one years since I lost my only sister to an overdose. My sister was a best friend I thought I'd have my whole life. I love her still with all my heart and hope she's finally found peace. She left a beautiful legacy of kindness, love, and humor. I will never ever stop missing her, and I so wish that things could have been differnt for her, easier. I know that I will be with her again.